hai..i don't even knw how the hell should i begin. it all started with this sickening com. spend the whole afternoon to reformat. but found out the norton was'nt working. and i kept installin installing and it does'nt work out. ok fine..and it says i could'nt locate one of the files. and was getting tensed up as i search high and low in the com. still could'nt find it. and had to hurry like a race against time to help bro as he gonna finish up his project. i try my very best to find it..i found ways to it..but was fucking hell annoyed by the disturbance from my bro and his gf. i was so fed up..i could'nt concentrate at all. was complaining to dear and she kept telling me to lax lax..*splash* me do it slowly. but i jus could'nt do it. they are far too much. i tryin my best to help my brother and he is down there having fun and would'nt even bother to help me at all!!

in the end..i went pass my limit. blast to dear. and even caplock. it was damn fuckin rude to that to a girl more worse ur gf. =.= but i was really really very furious. boiling. i can't stand it anymore. in the room, it's the same wat i said previously. and outside the living room. mum and sis naggin me to do my work. feelin so stress up. and i msg dear so much like a basturb. hai..a screw jus went loose in my head. i did'nt mean to do it..but it maybe a moment of anguish. i was feeling so fucked up and went back to my room. starred at my work. totally no more mood to do it. my mind was filled with 3 words " I'm a basturb" she's my gf..one i should cherish loads and yet i treat her like a fa xie tong. wth..am i doing? hai..regret so much after that. lie on the bed and kept thinking of my foolish act. it was really really dumb of me. i had never thought of the outcome and scold whenever i wan.

hai............................................................till now i havent even finish up my work and it had to be handed up by tml. no use too late. leave it tml and see how. dear..i'm very very very sorry. really regret wat i did jus now. guess i was really too much jus now. even make u angry. was lucky that u did'nt ji chou and u are a forgiving person. *aHem* anyway, really sorry. although it has already passed but it was my fault. hai..i was lucky this time. but wat if next time i make u angry again..it seems like a million sorry would'nt be any help..